February 2012
98 posts
skinnytea:
things I wish I felt:
I have an awesome body
I am proud that I am trying to recover
I am happy with myself
I don’t even need to kick my ass in the gym because I look fantastic
I can have any food that I want to have
I’m not going to get fat if I eat like a normal person
being thin won’t make anything better
I have a reason to live
how I look ≠ my worth
If I’m hungry, I...
i had a terrible weekend. i feel rotten. i want to feel clean again. so i am going to eat clean. it’s just my favourite way to eat. i didn’t even like any of the things i ate, so i don’t understand why i did it…perhaps because i am staying in the flat where my problems started, and all these habits just come back all of a sudden. but i am stronger than that now. two days...
“Diets never work because they attempt to make up for the past and linger in...”
– Tara Stiles (via somethingroyal)
So I am home at my mum’s place for a week (for the holidays), and I always find that quite challenging. My eating disordered behaviours started here, and I have had many, many bad days in this place (when it comes to food). I seem to always end up falling back into old, destructive habits when i come back, so I am really trying to battle that. I haven’t eaten badly so far, just a bit...
skinnytea:
Once I eat I just want to keep eating and eating and eating until I can’t eat anymore.
I still have to meal plan.
greentea-lovely:
Realization.
Not quite there where I can “just eat”. That means “overeat” or “undereat”. Blah.
I’ll get there though.
Anyone want to distract me with some questions? Yes? No?